common test is next week. actually just one day away to be exact. man it's gonna be bad. it's so bad i've even thought of telling my teacher 'sir, im gonna fail this common test big time. so pls dont make a fuss in front of my parents when u get to meet them eventually.' i've even rehearsed it through during my bath. talk abt being pessimistic. weird thing is i feel so unnaturally relaxed, nonchalant. anyway fate has been decided, destiny is unalterable so why bother right? har! fatalism. but no! that shouldnt be the way. not when i am where i am now. i need to uproot this old thought pattern of mine and just give it my all. which is exactly what im gonna do now. i may not ace it but at least i didnt forfeit my own integrity.
oh gosh... i feel so lousy now. things hasnt been smooth lately. on top of that i've lost you. i dont know why you hold so much sentimental value to me. perhaps because uve been with me through my sad and lonely times. i can be away from the world when im in you. it just feels so wrong without you by me. i still unknowingly reach for you every once in a while. my heart aches when i find you missing. man. i didnt know you meant so much to me. well now i do. i guess man will never learn to cherish until they've lost. i keep praying and hoping that one day you might turn up. im still waiting.

to: my ipod.
from: your owner.